Now, I find myself having been in Cambodia for 5 years and being amazed by God's grace throughout that time. When I first left America it was all a great big adventure and going to be so much fun! My first 4 weeks was completely that (and grace filled from the moment we arrived in Cambodia and the 17 year old on our team who lost his passport between America and here was allowed into the country!).
After that first month though, I found myself in some desperate need of His grace. I couldn't just force new friendships, I couldn't simply snap my fingers and be fluent in Khmer and I couldn't deny the need for Hope I was seeing all around me everyday.
His grace was the only thing that would make a lasting difference for me.
And, I still rely on His grace everyday.
I have wonderful, deep friendships here now and I need His grace to continue investing in them even though people come and go about every 4 months here. I can understand Khmer REALLY WELL now and I need His grace to keep me learning in an attitude of humility. I know the names and stories of some people who are bound by hopelessness in their lives and I need His grace to continually speak and offer Hope... Continually. Over and over and over and even over again....
So many things I can't "just make happen", His grace is a sweet necessity in my life.
Just as it was in Paul's life when he asked the Lord to remove a pain he could not remove himself and this is what God replied and Paul's wise response,